“During my pregnancy, I had never felt happier nor more aware of how precarious happiness could be,” she wrote, adding of welcoming her son, “I survived preeclampsia, a life-threatening birth complication, and finally, our family was whole. Mine is a story of worrying in the wrong direction.”
While noting her knowledge as a psychologist of how challenging the postpartum period can be on a marriage, she continued, “But I confidently moved to another country with my 2-month-old baby and my husband to support his career. Consumed by the magic and mundanity of new motherhood, I didn’t understand the growing distance between us.”
Now, Lilly noted how she’s looking to the future amid the public scrutiny on her life.
“I work diligently on my private project of accepting the sudden public downfall of my marriage,” she added. “This, I tell myself, is nothing to be ashamed of and nothing to hide. Slowly but surely, I have come to believe that in the absence of the life I planned with my high-school sweetheart, a lifetime of sweetness is waiting for me and my child.”
She also spoke to her current dynamic with Ethan. “While our partnership has changed, our parenthood has not,” she noted. “Both of us fiercely love our son 100 percent of the time, regardless of how our parenting time is divided.”
